please let me be a happy girl

i've got a conclusion. i got the gene for my stupidity and dumbness. inherited from who i donnoe. but i certainly hope tat i dun pass on this stupid and dumb gene to my children next time. =/ i screwed up my spa. how stupid of me. it's NOT tough loh. and i still can screw it up. hoho. wat a joke. haiz. ok i'm sorry if i bitch too much here. but i realli need to bitch once in a while. work piling on me like nobody's business. CAS, board design, unbrella file, games file, poster thingy(juz pray tat kee onn will help. cuz i cannot draw anything for nuts.) bio is so complicated, chem sux, math is confusing. felt like a failure some times. lack of sleep, problems and everything. sometimes felt like dying but there's too much things tat i cant let go. oh darn i sound so pathetic and miserable. argh. i hate being pathetic and miserable. =/ need a hug now. -end of bitching.

hmmm. ok, ran 4 km in gym juz now to de-stress. yep. it helps. =) today is mother tongue day..early in the morning and it was raining cat and dogs. lucky i wore slippers and shorts cuz water was splashing everywhere. hee. was whining to clarrisa on the way to sch cuz of the rain. haha. i'm a terrible and horrible spoilt girl. bleh. oh yah our class set up this booth tat sells food. hee. got yam cake, something maltose and mua chee. the mua chee was good~ hee. the most diao thing was tat we got all the food we wan to sell..but no plastic bags, sticks, plates, bowls, spoons. smart eh? den have to borrow frm council room. (--") yah and i went to council room to koup some bowl, plate, sticks, plastic bags and spoon for them.. gee. feel so guilty now. but will use own money to buy and stock back council room. =/ anyway, today's sales was good! we earn abt 70+ bucks. hee. not bad eh. oh and i was trying quite hard to steal some melted maltose without kenneth's notice..but he noticed. haha. onli wan to steal A BIT den he wanna charge me money. hmph. stupid boy. haha. den was too greedy and steal too much..the whole sticky melted maltose dropped on my hand. and it was damn sticky lah. had a hard time washing it off. haha. and stupid kenneth was laughing EVILY at me. hahah. bleh. kz...den went off to see her. argh. dun wanna tok abt it. ok shall end here. ciaoz.